My Crayons
Finally , after more than a week of trying to post this ! I have just been inspired to press the " Publish Post " button !
Looking deep in my heart , seeing the scar of an old healed wound , flashback in my head nothing other than the sum of all the memories and events that were tightly bound to how it ended injuring my heart ! It aroused my sleeping feelings of hatred , disgust , & grudge !
Anyways , two questions kept spinning in my head after what happened , for which I can IMAGINE no answers ! Probably because I never thought that such things could exist to provoke one's mind to wonder about !
The first is How can someone renege on a promise he took on himself ? & the other one is How can someone not have enough guts to uncover what is going on his mind , and prefer to avoid facing other with reality ?
Wearing the innocence of a child smile , walking with vicious kindness , promoting hypocritical loyalty , prided with artificial nobility , and deceiving people with fake honesty , were all discovered long after encountering the stealthy hit , when incidentally my heart was seen bleeding inside !
This kind of people think they are smart , but in fact you will realize their true nature of selfishness , arrogance , & near sighted vision , that sees no further than their noses , with only one image that shows on their mirrors which is a false bright reflection of their self-delusions , that mislead them to believe that they are the only creatures living in this world , and if any others existed , they are nothing other than worthless bugs , to whom the right of crushing is theirs any time they feel like it !
Long story short , it is like living peacefully on an island in a world of your imagination , having everything you need , and satisfied with everything you got , and suddenly , out of no where , they pass by like ghosts leaving you with gray crayons after promising you a box full of colored ones if you give up yours ! Once done , they never existed !
8 comments:
I like this post, loved the use of words.
Many people find it hard to confess feelings, because they are afraid of hurting the other person. However, they end up hurting them even more when there true identity appears to them. Many people are like that, so you need to chose carefully. I know that you're aware of that, and that we cant control feelings. But we can control our actions; by taking things slowly, and not trusting so many people.
:)
Hehe , if i wasnt kinda sleepy and busy doing wat i was doing , i should have referred to most of wat u mentioned in yr comment
- They end up hurting us more ....
- We should take things slowly ....
- We should choose carefully who deserve our trust and care
- and lastly what is most importantly is we have no control over our feelings but for sure over our actions , but wat i would add here is when sometimes feelings overcome actions ...
Bitter??
i want to write alot of words here that passed my mind while reading this put i cant
:( this is the only thing i can put here as a comment this smiley
:(
Sorry you are hurt!! but you did hurt people too. You were selfish and mean to people, i know it. And you always think you are right, and people are mean to you, but you never see and think about how you are being with people...
wondering , what may inspires you to write such a thing ?!
a good writing , keep on
Doctors feelings are always go ups & downs....may Allah help you...
but anyway : Welcome to the real world buddy :-)
as if you were describing me in every word..... :)
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